This is stolen directly off my Facebook so if you already read there, then I will give you an excuse for avoiding this blog. But a little backstory. I've always been a big guy, but recently it gotten really out of control. In December I finally had enough and signed up for a weight management program at Miriam Hospital. There were no openings until February so I began my journey then. Since I have lost 120 pounds. I went from 376 pounds to 256 pounds. I still wanna lose around another 40 but 120 is a pretty big number. Here is a before and after picture I posted and my Facebook post from today.
Just wanted to update how things are going with my weight loss program! I'll try to be quick but have a lot I wanna share!
Today marks the official start of the next chapter of my weight loss journey. I'm all done with the full fast/cleanse part of my program at Miriam Hospital. 24 weeks and 120 pounds later it is time to turn the page. I'd do another before and after picture but my phone broke the other day so that'll have to wait. As I type this, I honestly cannot believe I am the man I am today. I was almost 400 pounds, that's fucking (sorry mom) crazy. Now today just over 6 months later I'm 256, about 40 pounds away from my goal I set out when I started.
I'm still in the program for the about another month, but the next phase is about transitioning back to eating food every meal and not just having meal replacement shakes and supplements. So basically I have shakes for two meals a day and then one sensible meal. Which means I'm gonna have to start eating vegetables...everyday. I know right...me, Ryan M******, eating salad, who would've thought that day would ever come?
So basically, in this next step of the program you slowly get re-introduced back into eating and being a normal human again. This is the most important step because as someone who has lost over 50 pounds three separate times in my life before this, I know that the hardest part of weight loss is maintaining and not regaining. The great Bill Belichick said something along the lines of this in 2014 on the way to a Super Bowl Victory.
"7-2 is nice, but you still have a long way to go, 7 wins just isn't enough, it isn't gonna win you anything in this league"
(skip to about 40 seconds in)
That's sort of how I feel now. Yeah 7-2 is a good record, but you aren't gonna win a Super Bowl with only 7 regular season wins. You have to keep going. So for me yeah losing 120 pounds is awesome, but I still wanna lose more, and most importantly, it literally doest matter if I just put it all back on. This journey is nowhere close to complete.
Now I'm almost 25, and (despite not having a real job) I'm starting to feel like a real adult man and am ready to attack whatever comes next. I want to be held accountable, I want to get a career, move out of my dad's basement, meet a girl, have a family, none of that will be able to happen if I didn't address myself first. I've matured and grown so much through this journey. Yeah I'll still be a dickhead on twitter or say things in the company of friends that the masses would find inappropriate but I'm not the same Ryan Mycroft anymore. In addition to dropping 120 pounds. I just feel like I have just grown as a person much more, physically, psychology, mentally and emotionally. I''m confident that I will keep going and NEVER go back anywhere close to where I was just 6 months ago. I'm ready to start the rest of my life.
I feel weird sharing parts of it because a lot of this is very intimidate.I have a ton of Facebook friends that I've straight up never even talked to in person, so it is kinda weird to post all this stuff, but if you know me at all you know I'm an open book. In my circle of friends I am hands down the most open one about my life. I don't do secrets. Plus I'm sure people are skeptical of the program, and think I'm going to fail, so I'd like to explain it to them, because if I wasn't in it I know I would be too. But it is medically supervised, I meet with a doctor and psychologist every Wednesday.
My friends have busted my balls and called these posts "fishing for likes" which is simply not true. Obviously a little recognition feels good, I'd be lying if I didn't say that, that's just part of the human condition, compliments feel good, but mainly this has all been about two major goals 1. Holding myself accountable and 2. Motivating Others. Truth be told, despite a ton of growth, deep down inside parts of me are still the same awkward dozah. TBH I actually get a little unconformable talking about all of this weight loss in person for more than five minutes. Just because I feel weird talking so much about myself (I know as you read this long ass post, you're probably thinking "Yeah right bro" but I seriously mean it) I'm still not 100% comfortable in my skin, but I'm a hell of a lot more than I was earlier this year. The way I see it, with all of this, by letting tons of people know what I'm doing, then I have more people out there making sure I stick to it and don't give in. I've been so open about it on purpose, I want people to know I've lost this weight. So that God forbid I put on 30 pounds or something people will call me out and get me back in line.
Most importantly without all the love and support I would've never been able to accomplish this. People reaching out to me both in person and online has helped me more than you can ever imagine. I put myself in the situation where I needed to lose weight or else I probably wasn't gonna see 50. It's nobodies fault but my own, but having the support and motivation from family, and friends has just helped me sooooooo much I cannot begin to thank people that have reached out to me enough, you all know who you are.
And lastly what I am most proud of is motivating others to change as well. My mom shares basically everything I do and since she lives in Florida and interacts with her circle of people I barely know, I am constantly hearing stories from her about her friends that I have inspired to better themselves. You don't understand how good of a feeling that is. I hope that my friends, and friends of friends can use me as a tool as well. I did go to school to be a teacher after all and have an education degree, helping others is something I am very passionate about. I've said it before, but it doesn't even have to be weight loss, my journey can translate to really anything in life. My main message is don't sell yourself short (I type that as I still do that to myself constantly but am trying to get better at it), you are worth it! Obviously there are dreams we have that cannot be accomplished. I'm never gonna play in the NFL, but in our own lives there are millions of things we CAN do. You only have one life to live, don't waste it being unhappy and someone you don't wanna be, you can always make a change and better yourself. If I can do this, you can too! We are all capable of so much more than we give ourselves credit for.
Thank you again to everybody that has cared enough to reach out at any point and give support, continue to do that, not just with me but other people in your life. You really don't know how your words could positively impact someone! I could go on for hours, even though I'm not a great writer it is something that I love to do, but I want people to actually read this so I'll stop here. Thanks again sooooo much to everybody! Heres to the next 40 pounds!