Last night I set an alarm for 10:30 AM. (I had Desperado as the song because I'm on a HUGE Eagles kick right now plus it's light and easy to wake up to. I feel like it's a much better way to start your day than an annoying alarm sound or a heavier song) That by itself is kind of ridiculous, 10:30 is wicked late to normal people, with real jobs and real lives. But to me it might as well be 5 am.
I have Mondays off and I wanted to get a decent start on my day, I had big plans to clean my room and mow my lawn on the day off, mainly so my dad would leave me the fuck alone (oh did I mention I live at home too? Really killing life right now!) and maybe go for a jog later on, who knows where the day will take me?
But when 10:30 hit, I heard Don Henley's angel voice and thought "you know what, it's my day off, I have all day and I'm still pretty tired, I can get maybe another hour, it's not like I'm gonna do anything except watch tv and read on my iPad" Despardooooooooooooo, why don't you come to your senses?
After all, I was up late watching Just Friends on Netflix at 3 am last night. I had a busy night. Man Amy Smart was pretty....
Well before you know, I semi wake up and look at my phone to see it is 1:42 pm and I feel like a complete piece of shit. I jumped out of bed as if the faster I got up, maybe time would go backwards to make me feel less shitty.
I usually wake up just before noon, like 11:57 am. What's crazy is I didn't even go to bed drunk or high, I was stone sober and slept til nearly 2 pm. When I was in high school we got out of school fucking 10 minutes later. I slept for an entire NHS school day. May 9th 2016 basically didn't happen in my life. It's gone.
Let me give you a little background in my life right now, I am 24 years old, with a job at night. I graduated college in May of 2015, basically a year ago and for the last year I've had no real responsibilities before 4 pm so my sleep schedule has been horrible.
It is kind of shitty, and I do feel like a scumbag, but I mean I really have no reason to be up at 8 am, I don't have a gf, kids or a dog, so I'm just responsible for me. Maybe that's what I need to kick start me into true adulthood. The law may see me as a man, but in my eyes I'm a 24 year old man child with two pieces of paper that say I graduated college sitting in the envelope they were mailed in in the mess that is my bedroom somewhere.
I did graduate college, I feel like I need to say that as many times as possible to reiterate that I do have some things going well in my life, and I do make decent money for having a part time job, but I'm 24 years old and have a college degree I feel like it's time to start being a real person again. I want to have more responsibilities, I want to be taken seriously, I'm ready to get a real job and start putting myself out there for the lady folks. I've been getting in (better) shape, I'm down nearly 80 pounds since February. I'm making baby steps towards real adulthood. It's hard to believe a year ago I was waking up at 5:15 am everyday to go teach history to high schoolers, but I was, even if it feels like that was a lifetime ago. But I'm really not that far away from being a contributing member of society, I'm a haircut and a job away from being a real man. I just fucking love sleeping man.
Obviously I'm going to have to get a real job soon, can't be in the pizza game forever, so either I'll get discovered as the raw blogger talent that I am or I'll end up working for the man as a history teacher but either way the days off sleeping past 1:30 need to stop. When I get a real job I'm obviously gonna wake up at a normal hour but my question is when should I wake up now? I work at 5pm on Tuesday and Wednesday, 4pm on Fridays and Saturdays at 11 pm, the other three days I have off. What time should I wake up at to feel like less of a piece of shit, 8? 9? Idk, am I over reacting? I mean obviously quarter to 2 is ridiculous but it was more of an anomaly than anything.
I'm eventually gonna have a real job and sleep shitty hours, shouldn't I take advantage of my current situation for as long as I can and capitalize on all this sleep that I won't be able to get as a man with a real job and family someday? Does it really hurt anybody if I get up at 11? I go to bed after 3 am every night so that probably doesn't help but again I'm young and don't have a real job. I have no reasons to sleep normal hours other than just to be normal. Idk if that makes sense but it kinda does to me. I just know that this is all going to change, and most likely more sooner than later. I can't be 25 years old and delivering pizza. Just won't allow it, I'd like to get laid again, someday.
So let me know what you think, help me become a normal adult man, in the current situation that is my life when should I wake up? I'm gonna try to get up before 11 tomorrow, gotta walk before you can run.
Btw didn't get to cleaning my room today but I did mow the lawn. Baby steps.
Oh and here is Desperado. Can't mention a classic like that and not include it... I'm not crying, you're crying.
P.S. Glenn Frey version on Letterman in '84 during the height of their break up really gets me. Now I am the one crying.