Pre-warning. This blog starts with a lighthearted, yet serious breakdown of what's going through my head as of late. Just scroll to the twitter video of the Sand Man if you aren't about that oversharing-while-hoping-my-struggles-can-help-others life.
Last week during a free period, I did something I never do and made a (rather ambitious) to-do list of what I'd like to accomplish during my February vacation.
I want to use my time away from teaching World History to apathetic youths to focus on something that actually matters; like learning skills that'll make me more hirable by Barstool and making moves to dig myself out of a COVID-depression/regular depression hole I've dug myself in the last 11 months.
We're now officially past business hours of day two of my "break" and up until this post I've done nothing except eat, have anxiety, and fold some clothes. I did other stuff too, but you know, rule of three for comedy.
It's not to say I haven't tried to work, I have. I'd love to get as much done as possible during this "break", but the fact of the matter is ya boi is extremely mentally and emotionally exhausted and not so secretly going through some shit.
I want to blog, I love writing, it's what I want to do for the rest of my life, but I'm so fucking in my head about everything that it's almost impossible to be creative and/or funny, which then sets off the dominos of self doubt. "How am I ever going to get hired by Barstool if it's taking me 2 hours to write six paragraphs?"
I've been fighting with myself whether to use time to recharge and unwind...truly step away from the screens for a few days vs. use this time to teach myself Adobe, write more, make more videos like I was in March-June etc. Both have their pros and cons, but in a perfect world I'd love to do the latter, but in reality it's been more of the former while feeling guilty about not focusing on the latter. I get super frustrated about a million things and just want to crawl into a ball and do nothing... but then know that's not going to get me where I want to be. It's a vicious cycle.
I figured learning Adobe is probably a better move longterm then writing blogs this week, but I also haven't written a blog since Friday night. I didn't want to go four straight days without a post on DOL, so I opted to write a blog, then do some Adobe tutorials today. Fast forward to over three hours later where I deleted everything in frustration and felt like it was another wasted day of VACATION. Like one my future co-workers tweeted today, blogging funks are super real.
I was beating myself up like hockey tryouts were in 364 days and decided to take a shower around 5 o'clock to clear my head and go at it again for another couple more hours. After I got out, I opened twitter and saw this video.
How awesome was that? Adam Sandler went full Happy Gilmore from the clouds in honor of the 25th anniversary of one most influential comedies of my youth. If you were in any grade during the 90's, you've seen that movie.
And thank fucking God for this clip. I needed something lighthearted and awesome to distract my brain for a few minutes and the great Sand Man himself delivered that drive like he's delivered laughs to everybody ages 8 and up the last 30 years when you include his time on SNL!
I know sometimes I'm too niche in my content and what casts more of a wide net than Happy Gilmore? Happy Gilmore is probably one of the top 10 most quoted comedies of my lifetime with your Tommy Boys, Borats, 40 Year Old Virgins of the world. Grizzly Adams DID have a beard! Unless you're my grandma, you probably like Adam Sandler. Everybody has a favorite Adam Sandler movie and I bet she'd like Click if she gave it a chance. This was simply an objectively awesome social media moment that everybody can get behind.
Well, almost everybody.
Even Hal is on board!