Greetings, loyal DOL readers; it is I, ya boi Ole Dozo, coming at you live from my bed at 10:13 pm on leap day 2k24. I hate how inactive I've been on the blog lately, but ya boi has been going through it and feeling a little more helpless than usual. I mean, things are definitely looking up. I'm in the extremely early stages of talking to a super cute fellow 32-year-old lefty teacher; been working out consistently and haven't eaten fast food in 2024...I'm actually super proud that I haven't broken yet. My shrink and many others tell me I'm too hard on myself, so I'm gonna blow myself for a sec here. At the time of typing, I'm an hour and 45 minutes away from making it two full months without fast food. I'm usually awful with New Year's resolutions and definitely still need to cut out other things, but I am pumped at this point. Do I miss Taco Bell? Of course, but it's for the best. I don't wanna die and need to be healthy to have the confidence I want to live the life I'd like. I do feel better but also feel like I've been pooping the same. Idk I'm no doctor, but maybe it's similar to the weed tolerance thing when the more you smoke, the longer you're T break needs to be to actually work. It'll probably take years of fast food abstinence to clear out all the Cheesy Gordita Crunches and Wendy's 5 for 5s in my guts (s/o livy rodrigo). With Wendy's tryna introduce fuckin' surge pricing to Baconators, I might never return to one of my favorite redheads (at the very least not until I'm back in the 200s). To quote my favorite person that's also a band, Kevin Parker, "Yes, I'm changing," and like my little nephew teething, it fucking hurts. I'm trying my best to do the so-called "right things" while existing in this hellscape where it feels like nobody is happy or optimistic and the world is literally and metaphorically on fire. I know I'm not the only person out there who feels this way, but it fucking feels like it at times. I feel so alone; it stinks on ice. I get it part of it is "this stage of life," but that's also B.S. I'm worried my friends have outgrown me, and after 8+ years of DOL, I still haven't made the name for myself online I was hoping for. My tweets shouldn't always get zero likes. I don't wanna give up, but it's tough when you're struggling. In my last session, my shrink used this line that has genuinely stuck with me: "You can't pour from an empty cup." That's me. I live in this perpetual cycle of wanting to create but having nothing to give because I'm so in my fucking head and miserable about the state of humanity. I could sleep for the next three months and still be exhausted in every sense of the word. I'm not tryna be a downer, like I want the world be a better place for all. I pray for world peace every night. Gun to my head I am a God guy; I just loathe the Christo-fascist interpretation that is cyanide to our society. Believe what you want but don't force it on others. And that doesn't mean you can use your religion as a shield to be a bigot. Look up the 1946 project. Being gay is natural!! This is a Brain Dump in every sense of the word; I'm only gonna proofread for spelling and omitted/extra words. I'm just spewin'. I've wanted to write about a lot of stuff in my time away, but I let other things get in the way. Part of it is because I'm getting more and more okay with the prospect of never writing for Barstool and having that "what's the point?" feeling (with many things outside of writing too). Don't get me wrong, I still want to work there. It's a dream of mine, but there's so much more out there and I don't want to limit myself to the potential things that will somehow bring my life everything it's missing. I'm actually pleased to be back in the classroom, but it may be because my current long-term sub gig is the cushiest job I've ever had. I'm in a fucking special ed math class. It's insane that I'm in this position like I'm a history teacher who was out of the classroom for 18 months. I feel guilty AF that these kids aren't getting the education they deserve, but like what am I supposed to do? I was assigned to this position, needed a job, and had to be able to survive. It's not like I do nothing. I'm great with the kids and have built some awesome relationships. I'm gonna miss them when this placement ends, but yooo I'm not a fucking math teacher. The kids are super diverse in terms of function level. I'm not working with like severely handicapped kids. I'm probably more autistic than half of them. But being back in the classroom has me itching to be part of a school community. That's one of the most significant parts of education that appealed to me when I "chose" this path. Back to the loneliness and feeling like I don't matter thing...yeah, it's consuming my whole life. Getting nine likes on my February Dump on IG definitely didn't help. I know caring about that stuff is stupid, but it's like a tangible thing, and ik my fucking friends are on there. Do you not like me? Am I getting shadowbanned for my wOkE stories?? WTF is up? Wow, it's already 11, and since I need to get to bed at a decent hour to be a fake math teacher tomorrow, I'll end this dump here. If you read this, I love you. Go C's. Our "democracy" is at serious risk; please fight for it. P.S. I've been listening to The Beaches all week. This performance is the perfect intro to these fun sexy Canadian rockers. I've watched it twice and counting.
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Song: Broken Man Artist: St. Vincent Album: All Born Screaming (2024) I'm gonna miss St. Vincent's Bowie-esque Daddy's Home era (that's what made me love Annie Clark), but this NIN (who I don't really fw outside of copy of a, copy of a, copy of a, copy of a, copy) vibe is working for me...probably because I too am a broken man. Annie's lookin hot af here (pun very much intended), but talk about tough timing for a video where she's on fire given the self-immolation of Aaron Bushnell. I think it's safe to say this video was filmed well before that courageous act that is already forgotten by many *sad face emoji*. It's giving ya boi Clear Channel post-9/11 memo vibes. P.S. The Clear Channel Memo is nothing but bangers. This is just a sliver of the list. "Chop Suey" was only weeks old at the time! Double P.S. You wanna talk broken man......... (elite meme & album reference tho)
I've seen pretty much every piece of content about the double-dynasty that the Pats and NFL Films have to offer. Screw 10,000 hours, I'm closer to 100,000. Malcolm Gladwell ain't got shit on me! I've done my job (fallen asleep to youtube playlists) and can recite the dialogue in the 2001 Patriots America's Game verbatim (Lawyer Milloy's line on all the problems he was dealing with in '01 is unintentionally hilarious). For some reason, the 2014 Pats America's Game isn't on YouTube, but every other Super Bowl team's is.
Ideally, I was gonna wait until all ten episodes of AppleTV+'s The Dynasty: New England Patriots were out before I watched them, but Friday night, I gave in and binged all four available episodes. If you haven't seen it, two new episodes drop on Fridays until March 15th. The descriptions of those episodes are up on AppleTV+, so you can see the pacing and its many flaws.
That's my biggest issue with this project so far. I've loved the player interviews and candor we usually don't see from people associated with the Patriots, but who the heck decided it was a good idea to spend like 2.85 episodes on the 2001 season, then fast forward to 2007 and Spygate?? Scott Pioli basically tries to explain Spygate as a result of the pressure of winning, and we get a Vine's worth of '03 & '04 coverage. Sick!
Any Patriots fan/person who appreciates NFL history knows that few key moments happened between 2002 and '07.
Did the Brady-Manning rivalry never happen? How are you gonna gloss over two 14-2 Super Bowl seasons? Before two-ish weeks ago, the 2003-04 Pats were the most recent team to go back-to-back. It's like if you did a docu-series on The Beatles, spent three episodes on the Ed Sullivan Show, then episode four picks up at the Let It Be sessions. Yo AppleTV+, You know your little show is called "THE DYNASTY," right? I'd say 1/3 (2/6 if you don't reduce) of the Pats' Super Bowl wins are essential parts of that story.
Sure, Apple is trying to cast a wide net, blah, blah, blah. I know they want non-Patriot fans to watch too. I get why they didn't find 20 seconds to mention Rhode Islander Mike Cloud scoring five touchdowns for the '03 Pats, but it's fucking irresponsible to attempt to tell the story of the double-dynasty without mentioning Tom Jackson's "they hate their coach" rant after Bill cut Lawyer Milloy, the 21-game win streak, Willie's goal-line tackle in Indy, Bruschi's snowstorm TD, Ty Law picking off THREE Peyton Manning passes in the AFC Championship Game (and the Colts bitching to the league to get the rules changed), the back-and-forth classic that was Super Bowl 38, trading for Corey Dillon, Mike Vrabel being a touchdown machine, Vanderjagt shanking the game-tying field goal in the '04 opener, Troy Brown playing corner, holding the 2004 Colts offense to a fucking field goal in the playoffs after they cried to the league and got the rules changed, beating Pittsburgh IN Pittsburgh for the AFC title (again) after all the "they can't get on our level" B.S. Joey Porter was spewing after Pitt ended the 21-game win streak, Belichick's speech where he tells the team the Eagles parade route, or Fredex (Freddie Mitchell) talking shit about how he couldn't name the Patriots DBs before Super Bowl XXXIX. Karma got the last laugh since that was the last game of that bum's career (btw, 1 catch for 11 yards). How can you spend so much time on the Snow Bowl/Tuck Rule Game and not mention the 1976 Divisional Round??? I was -15 years old when it happened, and I know all about how the Sugar Bear Hamilton roughing call cost the Pats. Did he touch Ken Stabler's helmet? Yeah, but it was 1976 when manslaughter was allowed. On 3rd and 18, it bailed the Raiders out and saved their season. John Madden doesn't win his lone Super Bowl without that call. The '70s Raiders are viewed entirely differently in history without that call. The Tuck Rule was simply the Pats' payback en route to their first Lombardi. If you're gonna spend like 30 minutes on Bill Parcells, you should've at least mentioned the parallels between the 1976 and 2001 Patriot-Raider playoff games. Despite the tone of my blog, I have enjoyed the docuseries so far; it's awesome to hear Ernie Adams. I'm just wicked disappointed with its execution to this point. If you're gonna make a 10-episode docuseries about the double-dynasty....maybe mix in the fucking Super Bowls instead of the first of two incredibly overblown -gates? P.S. What the FUCK is going on with these run times?
Thirty-three minutes??! Are you kidding me? I liked the long Ted Lasso's, but you mean to tell me you'll make a 60-minute episode about Coach Beard, but we can't get a fucking hour ep about the most remarkable run in the history of North American professional sports? That is so damn rude. What's the point of making this if you're not gonna make it right? I'm sick of people/fascists rewriting history. I could've done a better job. It's not complicated. Here's a brief outline of how it should've gone that took me about five minutes.
Episode 1: 2001...briefly hit on the disappointment of 2002...starting 3-0, then falling to 3-4 and missing the playoffs. I'm talking 10% of the episode max, so it's mostly about 01 and other backstories like Kraft buying the team, Bledsoe, etc. Episode 2: 2003, 2004: 21-game win streak; back-to-back champs. Pats go from underdogs to dynasty (hated). Episode 3: 05-06: changing of the guard in the NFL. Bruschi's stroke. First playoff loss, choking away the 2006 AFCCG, and how that lead to bringing in Moss and Welker. Episode 4: 2007 Episode 5: Brady's injury in 08, first home playoff loss in 09, 2010 draft sets the Pats up for the next decade. Pats make it back to the Super Bowl, but Gronk's injury costs them. Episode 6: Aaron Hernandez saga & the Butt-fumble. Episode 7: 2014 & deflate-gate. Episode 8: 2016 & deflate-gate. Episode 9: Malcolm Butler benching, Pats bounce back in 2018 and win last Super Bowl...the dynasty starts to crumble. Episode 10: The downfall of the double-dynasty. Brady leaves for Tampa (gross). Song: Blame Brett Artist: The Beaches Album: Blame My Ex (2023) Had I found this song in 2023 and not this weekend, it would've for sure been on my Top 23 of '23. Everybody knows Dozie LOVES all-girl rock bands. Also, sorry for not writing for over two weeks. This may come as a surprise, but I've been going through it recently. Luckily, there's upbeat girl rock to ease the pain of existence! Yesterday, I listened to this album front to back, and so far, my favorites are today's SOD, "My Body ft Your Lips," "Kismet," and "Cigarette." I love a nice "Shower Beer" too! P.S.
I hope the people of Mississippi find this song and make a parody about Brett Favre stealing from the poor. Song: Hey Daddy (Daddy's Home) Artist: Usher Album: Raymond vs. Raymond (2010) I'm obvi pumped for the game itself and prop bets, but I'm wicked excited for the halftime show. I love Usher. He's been making bangers for longer than most of the guys playing tonight have been alive. I've been a fan since 8701 but had to go with one I loved my senior year of HS that might've evolved into a "Dozie's Home" rendition with my old friends that I desperately miss! Hopefully, we get that sick guitar solo from the rain dance part of the "You Got It Bad" video during the show tn.
I'm starting this blog at 11:28 am on Super Bowl Sunday after spending most of my week designing and tinkering this year's collage, and I still can't decide who I'm gonna pick. Mid-intro P.S. Can I get a job making these professionally? It's high-key and one of my favorite things (it's quite soothing).
As a narrative, history, and conspiracy guy, it's hard not to pick the Chiefs. Patrick Mahomes is probably the best quarterback of the 21st century, not named Tom Brady, and he's far from finished. If the Chiefs win tonight, Patriot fans should start getting worried about Mahomes passing Brady's six rings (As a Patriots fan, I don't claim the Tampa one, even though I did bet on the Bucs in SB LV and hit on Gronk scoring the first TD). The league would definitely prefer to see the Chiefs win. Whether or not anything shady happens to allow that remains to be seen. Mahomes is unreal, and much like Brady's legendary tenure in New England, he's reinvented his game throughout this run. These are not your high-flyin' Tyreek Hill go ball, Chiefs. They grind it out and have some serious 2018 Patriot vibes with a great defense (2nd in the NFL) and running game, although this does not feel like the end for them (maybe some of the older blood like Chris Jones and Kelce...if the Chiefs win this SB, I wouldn't be shocked if he retires to be a full-fledged media darling/Taylor Swift's husband). I've heard something like 75% of the money is on the Chiefs, which worries me. Vegas will take a "big hit" if Kelce scores the first TD, which makes me want to sprinkle, but despite how KC-centered the blog's been so far, I really want to see the Niners win. They've been my go-to online Madden team for the last two years and are jam-packed with studs I'd love to see win a ring. As the cliche police will tell you, football is a team game and IMO, the 49ers are a better and more well-rounded team than the Chiefs, but when you have already a top 5 QB of all-time, it's hard pick against them. They also have the better kicker; Butker's top three in the NFL, and Jake Moody is probably bottom ten. If I were a Niner fan, I'd be missing Robbie Gould big time today. I don't trust Moody in a clutch spot late. He's already missed two sub-50 yarders this postseason. Before I go any further, George Kittle is better than Travis Kelce. Kelce's a great pass catcher and helped me win my 2022 fantasy championship, so I don't hate him like I used to well before he was in 30 commercials a game, but Kittle dominates the blocking game and is the closest thing to Gronk the NFL has in terms of complete tight ends.
I'm not exactly discovering a new planet with this take, but if I'm the 49ers, I'm making someone other than Travis Kelce beat me through the air. Make Rachee Rice catch 8+ balls or fucking Noah Gray make a play. You know MVS will drop some. With Fred Warner and Dre Greenlaw, San Fran has one of, if not the best linebacker duo in the NFL that can MAYBE handle Kelce. It's a legacy night for Fred Warner. Stopping Kelce and making Mahomes rely on KC's other options is IMO SF's best chance defensively. I wanna sprinkle Fred Warner for SB MVP but I can't find it on the RISB.
It's not impossible to slow these Chiefs down, the Ravens shut them out in the second half and frankly should probably be in this game. I don't know wtf Baltimore was doing offensively, but they got scared and went away from their power running game. You can run against this Chiefs defense. Buffalo ran over 180 yards in the Divisional Round. Kyle Shanahan loves to pound the rock and feed CMC. I wouldn't be shocked to see him touch the ball 30 times. Kyle Juszczyk is gonna touch the ball too. I already spinkled him to have at least one reception this SGP.
FTR, I'm pro-Taylor Swift. Cruel Summer is a BANGER. The far-right hates her because she empowers women. If you get legitimately upset that the broadcast shows the biggest pop star on earth a couple of times, you need to calm down. Worry about something that actually matters, like her carbon footprint.
I still don't know who I'm gonna pick. I'm so fucking torn. I want the Niners to win, but I think the Chiefs will, and at the end of the day, I'm just tryna make a little scratch. I might place parlays with each team that make it possible for me to bet both ways and still have a profitable Super Bowl Dozie. Like I wanna pick the Niners, sooo bad, but the Chiefs have the better QB, kicker, and coach. Defenses are basically even; the league wants them to win; Brock Purdy is a game manager, and the Niners have struggled to get this far (they owe Dan Campbell some Metallica tickets or something), but am I seriously gonna bet against Mahomes? I've done it before and won, but it's not the most intelligent move. Sure, I was right in Super Bowl LV and the 2018 and 2022 AFC Championship Games. I've been decent at knowing when to take KC. I was on them last year and doubled down when they were down 10 at half. I'm high-key talking out of both sides of my mouth here because, again, I'm likely gonna find a way where I can sprinkle both ways and will likely do something live, too, based on game flow, but fuck it...who's actually reading this? Just get high and look at the collage. You'll have fun. I hope Usher crushes it, and we all make some money. Fuck it. I'm going with my heart instead of my head. Don't forget how much Mahomes and the Chiefs' offense struggled against Baltimore! Behind CMC and their D, the Niners win their first Super Bowl in almost 30 years. 49ers: 31 Chiefs: 27 58 points for Super Bowl Dozo. I'll comment my plays throughout the day, but the Doz Man HAD to take this. My hands were tied.
Since Elon ruined twitter and you can't see the entire post in an embedded tweet:
This is so Boston PRed Sox it hurts. Why sign any free agents or try to compete with the rest of Major League Baseball when you can whore yourself out (it's just an expression, Dozo supports sex workers!) to Netflix for the Hard Knocks nobody asked for? What a sick joke that the Red Sox will have two Netflix series, but it's still pretty much impossible to stream their games unless you want to get a 2nd mortgage to afford NESN+ (lol jk. You probably don't own a house because the American Dream is dead, but it's a solid figure of speech...you get it).
Even though I haven't made the impact on the internet or world that I would've liked to by this point in my life, I'd like to believe I was one of the first people to arrive to the "John Henry is an evil, soulless, out of touch billionaire that does not care about the Red Sox anymore" party. I was likeMichael Scott and Dwight at David Wallace's party early. I hated but tolerated ownership well before the Mookie giveaway because winning appeared to still be a priority. As loyal DOL readers know, that franchise altering decision was the straw that broke Ole Dozo's back and something I've spent a liiiiittle bit of time on.
The word outraged has kind of lost its meaning in today's social and political landscape, but that trade outraged tf out of me. My stances have evolved over the past four years. I still hate John Henry, Tom Werner, and Fenway Sports Group (FSG), but I don't hate the Red Sox. I actually love the Red Sox and all the great memories they provided me, but I refuse to support them in any capacity as long as these scumbags own the club. THEY DON'T CARE ANYMORE!
FSG is arguably hated more across the pond by Liverpool supporters, and I don't let my brothers and sisters walk alone. From my observations, more and more Red Sox fans have finally had enough with FSG. I refuse to invest my time, emotions, or money in anything FSG. The fucking gall of these scumbags to say this when they traded Mookie Betts, a sure-fire Hall of Famer, for a couple of cans of soup TO SAVE MONEY when you're one of the richest teams in all of sports.
This was pulled directly off of FSG's website.
I'm not surprised there will be a 20th anniversary of the Curse Breaking special. That's actually pretty cool. That team means so much to millions of people and will be awesome to relive. Sure, it's disgusting how that was 20 years ago, but as we all know, time is a biggg ole bitch. You just know that ownership is gonna milk everything they can out of all the '04 anniversary shit this year since the current Red Sox will be lucky to win 75 games. This same organization did an 8th anniversary celebration of the 2004 team in 2012 in an attempt to draw fans during that dumpster fire of a season.
Even though I'm sure that the Red Sox have total creative control here and will make Himmler's films look impartial, maaaaaybe there's a chance this somehow backfires on FSG and doesn't create some Drive to Survive type hype around the Boston Red Sox. I think FSG forgot that you need stars and not fucking suck to gain that following. You don't have a Daniel Ricciardo. Fingers crossed this somehow leads to them selling the Sox. This docuseries would've been an awesome idea in 2013, but the Red Sox ship is sinking, and this isn't gonna be the lifeboat they desperately need. Please sell the team to a billionaire that cares about the Red Sox, and don't forget that you're scumbags for partnering with LIV Golf in addition to trading Mookie Betts for gift cards to Circuit City and Tower Records. Song: One Night/All Night Artist: Justice (starring Tame Impala) Album: Hyperdrama (2024) "One Night/All Night" is a straight-up groove. It's not an exaggeration to call this song a trancy vibe masterpiece. The only downside is it's got me itching for more new Tame Impala (The Slow Rush turns four on Valentine's Day). Hopefully, Tame will release a new album soon. Bonus points for the lyrical content that will surely upset the unintelligent!!
I swear, every time I've gone on IG in February, there's been a Patriots Super Bowl anniversary post from the Pats official account smack dab in my timeline where memes and thicccc baddies are supposed to be.
Look at their last six posts.
Four of them commemorate the anniversary of Super Bowl wins. If you scroll once, two more posts pay homage to their respective pillars of the Double-Dynasty.
Don't get it twisted, I'd love to see the Pats win more Super Bowls, but I'm also okay with the prospect of that never happening again in my lifetime. Don't get me wrong, I'm not actively rooting against them like I do the Red Sox (fuck John Henry), but a half dozen Lombardis is ridiculous. We, as fans, have been so fucking lucky to dominate for two decades. Think of how many "one-ring" dynasties there's been over that timeframe. Like the Legion of Boom only got one. Of all those great Packers teams, Rodgers and Favre each only won once. '85 Bears. I could go on forever, baby, but I've actually had this blog idea for a minute and don't wanna give away any more examples (unfortunately, the big three Celtics also fall in the one-ring dynasty category).
We're about to enter a pivotal transitional time in franchise history. Someone other than Bill Belichick is coaching this team for the first time in my conscious fandom. We currently hold the 3rd pick in the draft. The AFC is loaded, and we're in the shit. It's been 30 years since things were so bleak for the Pats. I don't have any strong opinions on the coordinator hires, but I do not love the addition of Ben McAdoo to the staff. Dude's a joke.
Do you understand how hard it is to win 11 games your first year on the job and not make it to the end of year two?
Maybe the Patriots will have a quick rebuild. This year's Houston Texans and countless other examples throughout NFL history have gone from worst to first in a single year. The Patriots have legitimately hundreds of millions in cap space and, despite going 4-13, sported the 15th-best scoring defense with their two best players out. But this isn't the time to predict the future; I'm here to respect the past.
This week is the perfect time to reflect on how incredible that run was. We went a decade without a ring and still managed to end up with six. It really is fucking absurd, and it's not that big of a stretch to say the Pats could've won 7-12 Super Bowls (06,07,10,11,12,15,17,19...tbh I should put 08 too..if Brady didn't get hurt...fuck). Yeah, I don't love that Patrick Mahomes could already be halfway to us by Sunday night, but I'm also not a Mahomes hater. The dude led me to my first fantasy championship, so he'll always have my respect. I definitely would rather see the Niners win, but I'm having a hard time passing up Mahomes at plus money. ICYMI: The Patriots have won six Super Bowls (across four different dates). They've won more Super Bowls on February 3rd than 17 teams have in their history on any day. The Patriots hoisted the Lombardi on the following dates:
February 3rd, 2002
February 1st, 2004
February 6th, 2005 (19th anniversary today)
February 1st, 2015
February 5th, 2017
February 3rd, 2019
Today's the 6th and we've already celebrated six Super Bowl wins. If you wanna look at it non-year order it goes:
February 1st: Super Bowl XXXVIII and XLIX anniversaries. February 2nd: X February 3rd: Both Rams Super Bowl anniversaries. February 4th: X February 5th: Super Bowl LI anniversary February 6th: Super Bowl XXXIX anniversary. Not a bad week. I'm just so thankful that I got to root for this team and make some incredible memories while enjoying the ride with loved ones. You cannot beat being a New Englander in the beginning of the new millennium in terms of professional sports success. Of course, the way it ended sucked, but most endings aren't ideal. I didn't watch it, but...Game of Thrones...You probably won't die in your sleep at 90... Sometimes, you lose the greatest QB of all time as the world collapses from a pandemic... Whatever happens next, there will always be these early February memories and yearly instagram reminders. Hopefully, the Celtics add another championship anniversary this summer. If Belichick didn't bench Malcolm Butler we could've had February 4th too. P.S. If I had to pick a favorite Super Bowl out of all six, it's XLIX. Nothing can ever top that. The wait, all the close calls since '04, the way the game ended. I don't know how you beat Super Bowl XLIX. Double P.S. This entire blog is high key contingent on the Pats winning another Super Bowl. If they're posting the 38th anniversary of Super Bowl XXXVIII and haven't won any since LIII, that's gonna be a bad look. Song: The Bends (1995) Artist: Radiohead Album: The Bends I wouldn't be shocked if I'm in the worldwide top 10 for most plays of "The Bends" in the past week. I cannot get enough of this condition I hope to never deal with. The 2024 equivalent of wishing it was the 60s, as Thom Yorke's frantic does in "The Bends," is wishing it was the 90s. I, too, wanna be part of the human race. It feels like I haven't been lately, which I should write about, but that feeling makes everything seem pointless! I'm not as depressed as that sounds (don't get me wrong, I am); it's more so disillusioned. Ya boi just gets super bummed out about how bleak things seem, feeling more alone and insignificant as ever on this little pebble in the sky where people actively make life worse for each other. If I end up diving deeper into this topic like I know deep down I should, I will use this general thought again, but this is like a little soft launch...it's insane now man's most prominent predator in life is man. It'd be one thing if generations of people were riddled with anxiety and depression because we constantly lived in fear of being an animal higher on the food chain's next meal; that makes perfect sense to me. I'm sure the people who do live in those conditions are not super laid back, but why do we, as people, let the powers that be be this way? I feel like I'm rambling at this point, but that's merely a defense mechanism. I know exactly what I'm getting at if anybody actually reads this. Sure, I may be speaking in generalities right now as I dust the cobwebs off the keyboard and write my first February blog on the 6th...fuck it, I'm going Dozie's Brain Dump next post. I fucking do love this song though. |
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