I'm already running late for Thanksgiving at my aunts due to a heroic effort in some Thanksgiving football but I had to write a little something today. This blog isn't to talk about the touchdown I caught, and it's definitely not to talk about the two more I threw. No, it's to wish a Happy Thanksgiving to everybody and to tell how thankful I am to have so many great people in my life.
2016 has been by far the most important year of my life. I did two things I've wanted to do for a very long time and they were both the best decisions of my life that would not be possibly from all the support I've had from everybody around me.
First was losing over 100 pounds. It was 120 but now is closer to 100 but that's okay. I'd obvious love to be in better shape, but if I stayed right where I am from here on out I'm more than okay with that. I'm genuinely happy for the first time in years. Life isn't exactly where I thought it'd be right now but it's still pretty fucking good. I have the best friends in the world who are like brothers to me. I love you guys. A great family. Obviously love you guys too. I'm relatively healthy and I live in America. Sure I'd like more money and a girlfriend but things could be a whole hell of a lot worse.
I was almost 400 pounds and now I honestly feel like I have my life back. I just want to keep moving forward and keep living. I'm so excited for the future. Still a big dude no doubt, but shit is in control regardless of how much shit my friends may talk. To everybody who supported me throughout all of that you have no idea how much it means to me and I just want to thank all of you. To feel loved, and to know people cared enough about me to say something positive when I was in a very, very dark place honestly helped save my life. When times got tough I would think about all the great people I had around me and how much they cared and that I didn't want to let them down. To everybody who has reached out to me again, thank you. I wish there was more I could for all of you because you did so much for me. Honestly you have no idea how much it meant to me. That is truly what kept me going. Again thanks to everybody. You helped give me life again.
The second was starting this blog. Lots of people have busted my balls for how cavalier I am about my own life on here, but if you know anything about me that's how I am, I'm an open book. Maybe to my own fault, but it's who I've been for nearly 25 years so I don't think anything is going to change.
I know there are people who think I'm crazy for doing this and chasing what seems like an impossible dream, but we don't get a ton of time on this planet and I already wasted enough time being unhappy. I'm going after what I want. If I fail, I'll accept that, but I want to at least try and know I did everything I could to try to make it. I've been too scared of rejection my whole life and I mean I still am, but deep in my heart I know I have what it takes to make it, it's just if I'll get my shot. I could get a haircut and full-time job tomorrow if I wanted to, I have two college degrees and I'm a middle class white straight dude in America. There's plenty of opportunity for me. I could be just another guy like everybody else, but I want more than that in my life.
I just I want to make people laugh. I want to make people think. I want to show people awesome music. I just want to have a positive impact on people. I know life can be shitty at times and I want to be able to help people escape their real lives for a second when they need it. If you can laugh at me for a couple minutes and forget about the hardships in your life then I've done my job. To everybody who has read my typo-littered blogs over this year. Thank you. You guys are the reason I do this. If I wasn't getting readers and people didn't like it, I wouldn't do it. Somehow people keep reading.
When I die someday I want to be remembered as someone who made people's days better. If my writing can do that, that's awesome. I've had plenty of shitty blogs, but when there's a good one and people let you know it's amazing. When someone texts me about how something I wrote made them laugh it's honestly the best feeling in the world. It happened to me yesterday when I was running and it like almost made me go faster for a second just because it made me so happy. It's even better when someone tells you in person. That's what keeps me going all the positive support I've gotten from a ton of people. To all the people that keep reading, again I just want to say thank you.
So to everybody who has reached out to me, thank you. It means the world and honestly is what keeps me going. When I eat way too much food in a few hours and we're talking about what we're thankful for I know who I'll say I'm thankful for. All the great people I have in my life.
Again I hope you have a very Happy Thanksgiving and just know that what you say to people can be life changing. To me it was in a good way.