House Keeping That Nobody Cares About (I desperately hope you care) Bonus Tedy Bruschi Twitter Fight
It's your boy the ole doz man! Back from yet another extended break from DOL. However unlike many others in the past this was not by choice!
Weebly hadn't been working for me (could very well just be me being horrible with technology). There were multiple occasions where I wanted to write but couldn't because the blog was broken.
Of course I mean get high off of the rush of an online madden victory.
Weebly worked today so here I am baby, signed, sealed, delivered.
FTR I have tried to write since my last day earlier this month. Of course there were days when I didn't feel like writing for one reason or another. It's a combination of laziness and self-doubt. I get in my own head and down on myself. Being completely serious I believe I am talented enough to work for Barstool. If given the opportunity I'd do anything to make it work. I know I'm funny, intelligent, full of ideas and can make people laugh. There's also many more people out there who feel the same way. It just sucks because a lot of the reasons I've been not writing as much are my own fault. Ever since I left Nashville I've been pretty depressed and expressed that by putting on (probz more) half of the weight I lost in 2016. I was depressed and honestly thought about killing myself more than normal, and went to food to cope. Once things started turning around I still kept eating and now I just feel like a drug addict except instead of opioids my drug of choice is anything with carbs and cheese.
People will say shit like "If you want it bad enough, you'd do anything to make it happen" Like I should work harder and stop at nothing to make it happen. Which is true. I 1000% agree I could do more. Only problem is with real life that gets kinda tough. I have a full time job, a girlfriend (crazy, right?), and trying/failing to get back in shape to worry about. After a work day I'm tired and just wanna relax. It's hard to wanna write a blog that you feel like nobody is gonna read. It's hard to stay motivated I'm just being honest. But I'm moving into a new house with some friends in less then a week and am gonna try to use that as a started over point to focus myself to my content. I wanna start a podcast again. I think 3MP had some potential but overall was trash. We put maybe an hour of planning into three episodes combined and it showed. I know I need to work on my on air voice. I'm funny and know what I'm talking about but end up biting my own tongue getting all twisted up, or cut people off because even after nearly 27 years on this planet I still don't know how to have a conversation. I'm kinda rambling but that's okay that's what this blog is about, but I just get down on myself, dude. It sucks I feel like I'm never gonna make it so why even try? Which I know is a toxic attitude to have and I'm trying to fix it. Even just typing this shit now I feel better just to be speaking my voice again. I feel like blogging is not like riding a bike; you definitely can lose it. I feel like I hit my peak in 2016 when I first started and was writing pretty much daily. I'm hoping I can regain my fastball because right now I'm throwing a flat 84 which isn't gonna cut it. I'm hoping that overtime I'll be confident in my writing again. Thanks for reading up to this point I've got a new series on baseball that I'm really excited for that I kinda stole from Justin Havens that I'm gonna start after this blog. I've got a lot of real life shit to worry about but am going to try my best to write more and stop making excuses.
I know deep down I have what it takes to make it. I need to stop being such a pussy and getting discouraged and keep fighting. I owe it to myself and the people in my life fighting through actual problems. Obviously there's way bigger shit in the world, than Ryan M******t trying to make it the sports media game, but man it just sucks when it feels like you're fighting such an impossible fight. Plus when you see the newer content people at BSS that you know you're better than it just makes it sting more. I don't mean that as a slight although I'm sure it came off as one but it's just how I think. You gotta be competitive to make it in this game and I am done being scared to truly try. There's literally thousands (probably millions) of people out there like me who think they're a lot better than what they do than they really are who just want a chance. I know in the grand scheme of things I sound like a whiny bitch here, and at the end of the day it's just me chasing a dream. Everything should be okay either way. I'm a white dude in America with two college degrees and a rich dad. Real life happens and can put shit in perspective really quickly. I have an aunt who had heart surgery today. I just found out a few days ago that one of my friends has leukemia, and I've got another who needs a new kidney. I know a self-absorbed fat fuck's dream to work for a company he's slowly starting to hate isn't even a blip on the important things in life radar but in short thanks for the support so far.
Enough of that shit. While I was gone you may have missed me get told by a personal hero of mine that I need to get out of the stone age.
ICYMI the NFL drastically changed the tackling rules this off season.
They're literally trying to ruin football. If you've been under a rock, let me fill you in. If you lower your head to make contact it's a penalty. It drives me crazy. Just because helmets hit doesn't automatically mean you're going to get an concussion. Plus when guys do hard, clean shoulder hits in real time the shitty refs can't tell the difference and throw the flag anyways. This is all imo an overreaction to the Ryan Shazier injury. Sorry but he just used poor tackling form which led to his injury. Any pop warner volunteer coach could tell you that. It's just like what happened with Kevin Everett of the Bills in 2007.
To me it's eerily similar to the Buster Posey rule in baseball that eliminated home plate collisions. Sucks to say but both changes were overreactions to where a player being in bad position ruined it for everybody else.
I understand you want to make the game safer for players but this new helmet rule has gone too far. Hits and violence are going to happen. IT'S FOOTBALL. Play golf if you don't want to get hit. I know we want to do all we can to make the game safer but at the end of the day I think this rule change is a little extreme. It neuters football, almost entirely kills the already on it's deathbed fullback position and just bums me out as a fan.
Tedy Bruschi, New England Patriot team Hall of Famer took to twitter to talk about the new rule the other week. I disagreed and might've been a little bit trolly but I think my point is still valid. I don't believe he actually wants to take violence out of the game (at least I hope not).
I don't disagree about some players needing to change the way they tackle. Like Brandon Meriweather hits don't really belong in the game. But just because a player lowers his shoulders (which physically also lowers his head) doesn't mean it's a dirty hit. IMO it was just a lazy rule change that I don't think the NFL truly understood the severity when they imposed it. Between this and trying to kill kickoffs I really hate where the NFL is going. When Mark Cuban said a few years ago that the NFL was going to implode people laughed, now I'm starting to think he's right. Rome is what led to the fall of Rome and I wouldn't be surprised if the NFL had a similar fate.
My biggest point is that now we know the risks of football. We are more advanced than even 5 years ago. If you wanna put your body on the line for fame and fortune you should be allowed to. This is (for now) America. Players know the risk, and a lot of them wanna hit. So let them.