Hand up; I didn't wake up for good today until like 3 pm. Sometimes it's hard for your boi to get up in the morning (or mid-afternoon) due to the pain of living in a crumbling society/world with no lover to help cope, but after writing a SOD blog and rage-quitting two Madden games, I suppose it's time to hit the keyboard.
Frustrated doesn't even begin to describe how I feel every single day of my life in essentially all aspects of it. It blows my fucking mind there are so many shitty, awful people out there who lack basic empathy and compassion. How does it not fuck you up to see so many problems that could easily be solved if we (as a society) did the right things? I'm far from perfect, but I'm proud of who I am, and who I am is someone who, despite trying to put my best foot forward in life, is worn tf down from all the constant negativity.
When I finally arose and checked social media and my texts to see what I had missed, one of the first things I saw was news of a mass shooting at a bank in Louisville, Kentucky.
The article below was written after the recent mass shooting in Nashville, but it could be applied to any of the countless examples of gun violence in this country.
As long as this is the attitude Republican representatives have towards mass shootings, we are FUCKED.
In other words...
This is almost too on the nose. Fuck Rafael Cruz.
As shitty as things can be (and holy fuck are they), I am trying to stay positive and not let the news cycle destroy me. I had a buddy this weekend call me out and say I shouldn't care so much about others because it's negatively impacting my life, but I can't just unplug this part of my brain. I'm sorry I care about people and want life to be good for as many as possible. It breaks my fucking heart that this is our reality. How many people have to die before there's some fucking action? Unfortunately, some people in power who actually care and want to make a difference were just removed from their position by some cowards who hate democracy.
Only in America!
I believe in God. I'm not anti-thoughts and prayers, but when that's all you're willing to offer after all these senseless tragedies instead of actually fucking doing something...FUCK YOU! I hate Christians who think they can use their faith as an excuse to be a terrible person. Jesus loves us all, but I'm sure he's not thrilled at how you manipulate his messages of love and acceptance to be a bigot.
I'll end with this: Mass shootings are a side effect of living in a capitalist society. As long as elected officials get paid off by special interests and big corporations who don't want to see their bottom line affected by legislation, we are fucked. The NRA's blood money and Republicans' ignorance are decimating this nation. I loathe the far-right. They are the biggest threat to America. As long as I'm alive, I will never stop using my voice to fight back, but it's starting to look like we're gonna need a lot more than that. Fascism is on the doorstep, and unlike "woke," that's not just a buzzword. How many examples of authoritarianism under the guise of freedom do you fucking need to see before you WAKE UP?! News flash: banning books, bodily autonomy, healthcare, etc., is not freedom! Going after companies who disagree with your bigoted policies is not freedom (Ron DeSantis belongs in jail). Dismantling public education to keep the population ill-informed and ignorant is not freedom. Having to worry about getting gunned down whenever you leave your house is not fucking freedom.
This angle shouldn't come as a surprise to anybody. I truly pity people who are stupid enough to get sucked into right-wing bull shit. I came close to letting it poison my mind and hope to influence others to see just how fucked up and wrong they truly are.
How fitting is it that this piece is my 100th blog of the year?