Previous Dozie's Brain Dumps:
April 24th, 2023 July 10th, 2023 August 9th, 2023 October 10th, 2023 February 29th, 2024 March 11th, 2024 April 10th, 2024
I don't know if it's a case of the blogging yips, the aftershocks of a broken heart, or living through the fall of Rome 2.0, but I haven't really wanted to write lately. To quote Blur, "I'm a professional cynic, but my heart's not in. I'm paying the price of living life at the limit." In this case, I've been on the brink of a breakdown, and my priorities drastically changed, so my passions sort of faded away. Don't get me wrong; there's been a few things I've wanted to write about...like how about this fucking qunt?
But I've struggled to find the motivation, which is low-key ironic because tonight's Dozie's Brain Dump will mainly focus on #everydaydoz and a potential Celtics series-clinching win (they're up 30 as I type this). Not to suck my own dick, but this month has been a clinic in motivation for the Doz man!
It all started on April 4th. While recording my pre-gym video diary, I realized it was my fourth straight day going to the gym. This coincided with April 2024 being four days old at the time, so I threw out the idea of going every day for the entire month (as a bit). 
From there on out, I posted a "progress" selfie and my cardio numbies from said session. Part of me was like bro, this is kind of annoying, but a much larger part of me was like this will help me hold myself accountable. I didn't want to let anybody who believed in me down or give the h8r fuel by missing a day after holding myself to this bit to help me shed this COVID-depression weight. Knowing that people were gonna see how long I rode the bike for made me keep going.
Day 15 update (this was like a blog in itself).
I've been pretty open about my mental health throughout the life of DOL, but if you're new here, like most millennials...my brain is fuuuuucked up from all the fun catastrophic events we've lived through and from growing up with very divorced parents (like 60% of my friends). I eat my feelings, and ya boi feels a lot. (I'm almost jealous of people who don't care. Like how are you not freaking out about the threat of authoritarianism???) That's what happens when you're a hashtag good guy. It's no secret ya boi's been going through it this decade, and for far too long, I didn't care enough about myself to want to try. I was so fucking defeated. I put on all the weight I had just lost in 2019, which caused my mentals to plummet like Kristi Noem's chances of being Shitler's veep.
Talk your shit, official Celtics twitter account!
Fuck the Miami Heat! You're going HOME. This series win is step one towards 18---major 2022 vibes when we beat the last three teams to knock us out of the playoffs en route to The NBA Finals: Presented by YoutubeTV. If JT didn't get hurt in Game 7 last year, I genuinely believe the C's would've pulled off the 0-3 comeback. Still, it's nice to send these fuckers back to South Beach.
I've actually been going to the gym consistently since November of 2022 (except for Sept-Dec 2023, which caused me to backslide with my progression). If I went to the gym 3-4 times in a week--- that was a win.
This past month's been the beginning of a lifestyle change.
Can't lie I've been getting super distracted by the C's game and now in the Mike Gorman tributes and am not loving the quality of this blog, so sorry. We love you Mike! You're a legend and a true New England icon.
But yeah, I've gone to the gym for 31 straight days, and while I am proud of that, it doesn't mean much without legitimate progress. Actually, I'm gonna be nicer to myself. It does mean something because I'm doing this the right way. I've lost significant amounts of weight like five times in my life, and most were with some sort of gimmick (HCG, the shakes, etc.). No Ozempic for Dozie; I'm just exercising and trying to eat better. That's always been my most formidable mountain to climb. I'm starting to enjoy exercising, but I have a child's pallet. I wish I could tolerate vegetables and wasn't so texture sensitive (I'm so on the spectrum, idc what some Dr. said 25 years ago). Hopefully, I'll find some stuff I can stomach because once I start eating cleaner, the pounds will melt off!
It's also not healthy to never give yourself a break. I will eventually take some days off from working out to let my body rest, but I've got so much weight to lose and so much fucking fuel in me that I want to keep going. I love that I can lift heavier weights and ride the bike for an hour without stopping. In November 2022, I couldn't do 10 minutes. I'm so excited to keep going and getting my swag back. It's now 10:15, and I want to relax for a little before passing out, so like the Miami Heat's 2023-24 NBA season, this scatter-brain breakdown (like the sports analyst definition) of #everydaydoz is OVER!
P.S.
10 years ago today, I went to the first game of a Red Sox-Rays double header and Game 1 of a Bruins-Canadiens playoff series. My teams went 0-2, but it was still a super cool experience. 
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